Never There

I wasn't there most of his life.
I never held him when he cried at night.

I wasn't there when he began to crawl.
I don't remember going to watch him play baseball.

I don't remember boyscouts.
I think i made only one of his campouts.

His mom had to teach him to drive.
He probably wondered sometimes If I was even alive.

I hope he doesn't hate me for all that I missed.
I hope he understands I blame myself for not being there to take care of him and his little sis.

Time went by way to fast.
I took forgranted how long youth really last.

Years have passed, now my son is grown.
He's getting ready to start a family of his own.

I'm so glad his mother raised him to forgive and forget.
That doesn't change how much of my life I regret..

Just Friends is Not Enough

Friends slowly drift apart.
They give away their hearts.
They may call you now and then.
Only wondering what could have been.

I need you more each day.
It kills me to feel this way.
My heart is being torn.
I can't be just friends anymore.

A few years will pass.
Memories shatter like glass.
I'll still think of you sometimes.
Remember your face, so sweet and kind
only wishing you were mine.

You were just too afraid.
Never realizing how much that friendship would fade.
I want so badly to stay.
Stick it out for a better day.

I may have waited forever.
It just seems so long.
So I smiled as if it were easy,
Knowing deep inside I was wrong.

Today is the day you said lets just be friends.
Today is the day I fell.
Those words hit me deep.
Like the dark depths of hell.

You may never read these words.
I may never speak of them.
Sticks and stones may break me,
but words will never hurt me.
That phrase has never been so untrue.

Affection is something you show to someone you love.
Not to be rejected but cherished.
That's why I can't be just friends.
Because friendships perish.

Our Wedding Day

Today's the day I made you my wife.
Today's the day you filled this hole in my life.

You make me feel so complete.
Like there's nothing in this world I can't defeat.

I know there will be ups and downs.
But we'll get through anything with the love we have found.

I promise to love you forever and more.
I promise you'll never regret when you opened this door.

Behind it I waited, and I'm so happy I did.
Because today on our wedding day, we found a new life to live.

When I saw you in that dress, I felt a tear run down my face.
I couldn't help but think, how could I be so lucky to be marrying this girl today.

Brooke,
I love you with all my heart and I always will. Thank you for making my life worth living. You have truly been a blessing to me.
Love,
Trey