I'm Saved from Hell

I finally decided to follow Him.
It feels so good to know Him.

I carried my sins for 25 years.
I walk with God now and have no fears.

He carries me when I'm weak and can't move.
When I'm hungry and thirsty He gives me water and food.

I still do wrong but when I do,
I know He forgives me and He'll do the same for you.

When my feet hit that water, it felt so warm.
Like God wrapped His arms around me in a winter storm.

My head went under and I wasn't afraid.
I knew God had washed all my sins away.

I've never been the religious kind.
The subject rarely ever crossed my mind.

The devil has lost control of my soul.
I made the choice and God has taken over that role.

I make mistakes but for my God I'll never fail,
For He is my Savior from a deep firey Hell.

Ashes to Ashes and Dust to Dust

Things aren't the way I'd planned.
I want to know why my life is damned.

What did I do to deserve all this?
Why is temptation so hard to resist?

Maybe its because of all the attention she gives me.
Or maybe its how my wife isn't showing me any.

My best friend keeps telling me to quit while I'm ahead.
She'll take you for all your worth is what he said.

I can't take this shit anymore.
I wish things could be the way they were before.

Things were different way back when.
I was happy and never thought to sin.

We laughed and cried and made love under the stars.
Now I find myself closing down the bars.

I'm no longer finding comfort in this smooth Tennessee whiskey.
I only feel it when the other woman begins to kiss me.

Chills run down my spine.
I know this is wrong but this life is mine.

Don't judge me for what you put me through.
All of this started because of you.

I can't remember the last time you touched me.
All I have in my memory is the last time you cussed me.

You try to pretend like you still care.
You know our love is gone, bills and misery is all we have left to share.

Your just too unaffectionate for this to resume.
Our love blew up in smoke, I can see the fumes.

So just walk away, please don't make this hard.
I know you say your sorry and I hate this part.

You'll find someone new, I know that you will.
Just remember when you do, you let them know how you feel.

Don't let it end like us.
Ashes to Ashes and Dust to Dust.

Never There

I wasn't there most of his life.
I never held him when he cried at night.

I wasn't there when he began to crawl.
I don't remember going to watch him play baseball.

I don't remember boyscouts.
I think i made only one of his campouts.

His mom had to teach him to drive.
He probably wondered sometimes If I was even alive.

I hope he doesn't hate me for all that I missed.
I hope he understands I blame myself for not being there to take care of him and his little sis.

Time went by way to fast.
I took forgranted how long youth really last.

Years have passed, now my son is grown.
He's getting ready to start a family of his own.

I'm so glad his mother raised him to forgive and forget.
That doesn't change how much of my life I regret..

Just Friends is Not Enough

Friends slowly drift apart.
They give away their hearts.
They may call you now and then.
Only wondering what could have been.

I need you more each day.
It kills me to feel this way.
My heart is being torn.
I can't be just friends anymore.

A few years will pass.
Memories shatter like glass.
I'll still think of you sometimes.
Remember your face, so sweet and kind
only wishing you were mine.

You were just too afraid.
Never realizing how much that friendship would fade.
I want so badly to stay.
Stick it out for a better day.

I may have waited forever.
It just seems so long.
So I smiled as if it were easy,
Knowing deep inside I was wrong.

Today is the day you said lets just be friends.
Today is the day I fell.
Those words hit me deep.
Like the dark depths of hell.

You may never read these words.
I may never speak of them.
Sticks and stones may break me,
but words will never hurt me.
That phrase has never been so untrue.

Affection is something you show to someone you love.
Not to be rejected but cherished.
That's why I can't be just friends.
Because friendships perish.

Our Wedding Day

Today's the day I made you my wife.
Today's the day you filled this hole in my life.

You make me feel so complete.
Like there's nothing in this world I can't defeat.

I know there will be ups and downs.
But we'll get through anything with the love we have found.

I promise to love you forever and more.
I promise you'll never regret when you opened this door.

Behind it I waited, and I'm so happy I did.
Because today on our wedding day, we found a new life to live.

When I saw you in that dress, I felt a tear run down my face.
I couldn't help but think, how could I be so lucky to be marrying this girl today.

Brooke,
I love you with all my heart and I always will. Thank you for making my life worth living. You have truly been a blessing to me.
Love,
Trey

Not the Girl for Me

We didn't always get along so well.
Most of the time I made her life a living hell.

I'd pretend to be interested then make jokes to make her feel small.
I didn't know then that one day she would rise and I would fall.

After a while I finally came to my senses.
But it was too late, I had already burned those bridges.

I felt my heart ripping out of my chest.
It was all my fault for making her feel like she didn't deserve the best.

She was a great girl, innocent and pure.
I was in love with her, I knew that for sure.

I was young and naive, not knowing how to show my true feeling.
I wasn't sure if God was real anymore but before him I still found myself kneeling.

A few years passed, I'd almost given up.
Then one night, while out with some friends, I saw that girl I loved.

We talked until they closed down that bar.
I found myself lying with her underneath the stars.

At 19, we were invisible to the world.
I was floating above the clouds, cause I had finally gotten my girl.

I felt her hands run through my hair as I turned and looked into her eyes.
I trembled as she pressed her lips to mine.

I'll never forget the night we spent in that little Pontiac.
When I think about it, chills run down my back.

Months went by and I hadn't heard from her at all.
I couldn't understand why she wouldn't answer my calls.

Was it me or my past?
I want to know why we couldn't make it last.

I guess God has a plan for each of us.
So when you are lookin for love, don't get in a rush.

Let time work in your favor.
But never underestimate the power of your Savior.

Live your life according to his will.
Everything will be alright and you'll get the better end of the deal.

People come into our lives for a reason.
Some may stay for years and others only for a season.

But they still make a difference in our lives.
They help us to learn and to grow, they help us to survive.

So when someone passes through your life again.
Remember that you might be the one to help their new chapter begin.

Small Town Misery

Every time I go home its seems nothing is the same.
Its strange for me to see how much this old town has changed.

I come back now and then and people ask me where I've been.
We talk for hours as if we never stopped being friends.

The fields have turned to pavement and people are locking there doors.
The streets are filled with thugs and the corners with whores.

Its not the way it was when we were growing up.
You have to watch your back or you'll wind up getting mugged.

I remember the days when life was so easy.
People were honest instead of being sleazy.

I left when I was young and planned never to return.
I thought life was bad there, I guess I had a lot to learn.

I left my mom and my sisters in the hands of a small town.
I was wrong and now I'm sorry for the way I let them down.

I pray to God its not too late to get them out of that hell.
I'll keep trying until I die, no matter how many times I fail.

I try to look happy and pretend its all okay.
But deep down it kills me to see my family suffering this way.

With small towns you have big problems.
Most people aren't strong enough to solve them.

Thats why I ran away, as far as I could go.
Its not quite far enough but its better than being close.

I watch that place fall apart from a distance.
I wish I could help but when I think about getting closer I have a feeling of resistance.

It was nice growing up there but now its so different.
I'm afraid for the children of my siblings and what they might experience.

They're young enough now that theres still time for it to leave their memory.
But it has to be done soon, because they're growing up so quickly.

I'll make this promise here today.
I will get my family out, I will find a way.

If its the last thing I ever do.
I'll be happy knowing I've saved a few.

I think it may be my destiny,
To save my family from this Small Town Misery.